Life is so hard sometimes

It has been such a tough couple weeks lately and as I reflect on the events that have unfolded which involve my daughter directly I am amazed at how much it has brought us together and the life lessons this is teaching her. She has had some pretty rough times at gym lately and we are all at a loss on this and why she is the one targeted on a weekly basis, not sure why God has decided to test her this way, but He has and each time something happens we think, it can't get worse and why me....well it does and yup it's me again! So many times in life things happen and we feel like it's not fair this is happening to me...but I guess instead of feeling like why would this happen to me we should think "wow God has chosen me out of everyone, I must be special and really trusts me". With every bad thing we have to realize that He trusts us to make the right decision and be an inspiration to ourselves and others with how we handle things. I guess that's why God has chosen poor Bec right now...He knows what's right for her and I am trying to trust Him in this, it's just so hard to see your child struggling and you just want to make things right.....what a difficult thing when you can't. I know it will get better and I know we will get through this I am just hoping it's soon as I feel so incredibly exhausted and just ready to throw in the towel, but I know I can't do that. I just pray God can give me the strength to stand firm and tall and be there for my daughter who is honestly one strong, determined young lady that I am soooo incredibly proud of! You can do this Bec and so can I and together we WILL get through this and I love you!

For Today, Monday, November 10, 2008

Outside My Window...It' still very dark outside and I am hoping the wood will last in the woodstove so I don't have to go out there and get more before it gets light!!!!
I am thinking...of the many things we need to get done before I head into Medford!!!!I am thankful for...the internet; I was able to reconnect with many high school friends over the weekend, it was great!
From the kitchen...I can smell the coffee...thank goodness for coffee!
I am wearing...gray flannel lounge pants and a dark blue lounge shirt (I love lounge clothes
I am creating...the girls schedule and my schedule for the day
I am going...to Medford today, I have a very important errand to run
I am reading...the many posts and emails from my old school friends
I am hoping...things will go well with Rame today (he has to wear a heart monitor for 24 hours beginning this AM
I am hearing...the fire cracking and the creaks of my house!
Around the house...I have a few things to put away but all in all it's pretty clean!One of my favorite things...Spending time with my family and watching my kids cuddle up in blankets around the fire doing their school work!
Plans for the rest of the week
Girls writing club meeting at the Library today
A couple important meetings for Bec and I
4-H meeting on Wed
The girls friend spending the day with us Friday
Me driving to Medford at least 2X's this week (really enjoyed the past 2 weeks-no driving)
Catching up on laundry
Here is a picture I thought I would share:

FOR TODAY November 4, 2008

Outside My Window...I see the first snowfall on the mountains behind our corral
I am thinking...how beautiful the snow is and how quickly it will be turning from fall to winter
I am thankful for...Becca's x-rays being normal (for a gymnast) and that we turned a challenging week (last week) into a learning experience that has helped us grow in our faith and family!
From the kitchen...I can smell the aroma of yummy brownies that Becca is baking...mmmmmmm
I am wearing...jeans and a sweatshirt (cleaning clothes)
I am creating...a clean house :)

I am going...to be doing laundry all day and night at this rate
I am reading...my countless emails
I am hoping...Marissa's bunny is pregnant!
I am hearing...the washing machine
Around the house...I see one clean room and many more needing my attention!
One of my favorite things...my loving husband and my wonderful girls that always help me find the positives in situations and are so forgiving of the many mistakes we all make and ready to say it's okay....who could ask for anything more? I love my family!!!!

A Few Plans For The Rest Of The Week:

Finishing up our quarter end exams and paperwork to turn into Kolbe

Working a few hours tomorrow at the farm

Bringing our goats home finally this weekend

Marissa's confirmation meeting on Saturday, Adoration & Mass

Family pictures and a fun family day!

Here is a picture I thought I would share...

All Soul's Day

On this day when we acknowledge all those dearly departed from this world I want to personally pray for my dear family members that I have lost over the past years. My family is saying special prayers tonight and for the next several days for our family members we so desperately miss, my dad, my brother, my grandfather, grandmother, rame's sisters' sister in law, aunts, uncles, rame's grandparents, cousins and anyone else we have lost over the years. We pray for their souls and their families, may they find peace in knowing that we will all be together again someday and we are all on the same journey just some reach their destiny before others. May God have mercy on their souls today and always! Amen!

We knew it was coming!

We are headed in GP tomorrow morning to a sports injury doc and friend to have Becca's wrists checked and x-rayed. With gymnastics and any sports comes injury and we are hoping it's just a case of needing to do some strengthening exercises or just taking it easy. She didn't want to have them checked until after Sectionals and State championships the end of Nov and beg of Dec in the event she is told she has to take some time off. I don't think it will come to that, but I just want to be sure all is well and she isn't causing additional damage. She is very optimistic and so am I that it will all turn out fine with maybe a recommendation of new wrist bands that offer better support. She took last Thursday off to not only give them a rest, but so she could just be a kid and have fun with her friends that were spending the night! I must admit since she hasn't been at gym since last Wed she is very anxious to get back and work towards her goal for this week and that is to get her clear hip and work on her fly away (both bars skills). Please keep Bec in your prayers as she heads in at 10:00 to have them looked at.